= ¼ * 100

:)

Today being Malaysia’s Day and the day Datuk Seri Anwar and the Pakatan Rakyat plotted to take over the government, I would expected roadblocks and a whole lot of jam. A call to my colleague to ask about the situation in PJ revealed no major jam anywhere. In fact, she reached work half an hour earlier!

With that assurance of a traffic-less highway, I expected my journey to be a smooth-sailing one. Or so I thought. When I passed Bandar Puteri along Kesas, I heard drubbing noises, pulled over and confirmed my suspicions. But it was worst than what I suspected. Not only it was a punctured tyre, the rubber sides totally koyak and unsalvagable. I must have driven a long distance before realizing it. Shucks. Changing tyre shouldn’t be difficult. I’ve done it before anyway. So here I go, changing my tyres and the Kesas patrol men pulled over to help too. I thought changing tyres isn’t a big deal since it’s under control, I can do this without much problem but they helped anyway. As one of them was about to replace the spare tyre, he realized the spare tyre was FLAT as well. Yeap. One punctured tyre and a flat spare tyre. Great. So they took my spare tyre away to get it pumped and returned with it after a while. When’s all that is done, felt relieved and thought I could finally go to work.

Then I can’t start my car. Yes the battery’s dead. Probably because emergency lights must have drained them. Dang, I should have heeded Perodua’s advice to change the car battery! But who in world expect the emergency lights to drain out the battery?? But in all these, the way all these misfortunes unfolded itself, it’s like something you can only see in a comedy sitcom, I find this amusing. Yeah I laughed! I would expect to be annoyed but I was surprisingly calm and even grinned a little. I know! How could anyone laugh in this situation?? But I did and I can’t explain. But I kinda sensed God’s control in the situation. The timing of all these, the sequence of events and the timely intervention of the Kesas patrol. Somehow I tried to make sense of it all and lessons behind it. I’m sure God has something profound to tell me.

So at the end of it all, a tow trucked pulled over and offered his help to jumpstart the battery. I politely declined because my dad was already on the way with a mechanic to replace the battery. Just as I mentioned that to him, my dad arrived. Talk about good timing? :)

AH choo!

*Cleaning out cyber-dusts*

Pardon me for lack of update. This period is officially the most hectic period of the year. Let’s see what’s on my list of things-to-do.

• Work - thank God it’s exciting although I need to crack my head often in Flash development.
• Church - 10th Anniversary celebration coming up and there’s an anniversary commerative booklet and photo video slides to be done. Not to mention a Sunday School concert after that!
• Photos of a camp (~500 pics) and other events (~200 pics) to sift through and edit. More of  :\
• Every other little stuffs..

Fortunately, I’m not feeling stressed out. Yet. I hope I won’t be although I’m beginning to feel the pressure on little time I have. I need an artistic inspiration for our commerative booklet! :\

And here are some photos from Michelle Yong’s wedding dinner. The rest are in my facebook/multiply account. It’s also my first time photographing a wedding dinner (so-called the official photographer). Definitely need more experience!

Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and their regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.

Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.

Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

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This is almost spot on. Almost. I do not agree 100% in the second paragraph but overall, it is a fairly accurate description of me. So what’s your personality?

I’ve 4 albums uploaded into my multiply. You can check it out there or click on the individual links below to see the albums. As usual, you have to be logged in to multiply and be linked to me.

Kel Vin’s Birthday:

Juliana’s Wedding:

Teen Scene Fest 2008:

And finally, my company’s Tioman Trip, which is my favourite picture now:

There’s a saying that goes “You don’t know what you have until it’s gone”. It simply means a sudden appreciation of worth once it’s gone. It could also be understood as to appreciate and not take for granted what you have in life.

What if you know that it will definitely be gone in time to come? Another saying, which I would paraphrase it as “Appreciate and enjoy have you have now while it lasts” comes into the picture. And appreciating it as best as possible is what I’m (at least) trying to do. Because the moment can only last so long and it will be gone as soon as you know it. Admittedly it’s not as easy as it may sound, when there’s a constant tangle between trying to prolong and knowing the inevitable end.

It’s not possible to make it lasts it forever but perhaps the only way is to make the most of all, while it lasts.

Isaiah 40

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

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I don’t wanna be weary..

._zilchº says:
why does badawi take evening walks instead of morning walks
- peanuts - says:
dunno
._zilchº says:
because he is PM not AM
- peanuts - says:
i seeeee……………
._zilchº says:
haha
- peanuts - says:
those who takes morning walks would be AM
must be khairy
you know why?
._zilchº says:
assistant minister?
- peanuts - says:
no..
he’s the PM’s Anak Menantu
._zilchº says:
swt
- peanuts - says:
muahahaha

…WHEN WE BEAT CHELSEA??!! GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED! AS THE REDS GO MARCHING UP UP UP!

Ronaldo’s goal

Lampard’s VERY lucky equalizer

It went on to a penalty shootout after staying level for the full match and extra time.

Gasp! Ronaldo’s shot saved!

As Chelsea leads the score and needing just one deciding goal, they would be able to wrap up the game.
But the unexpected happen…

Terry missed his shot wide!!

Van der Sar saves Anelka’s shot.
With Terry missing his deciding shot earlier, the trophy goes to…

Manchester United! The champions!

In 2 hours, one of the biggest football clash in the world is about to begin. Already the 10th time Premier League champions and 17 league wins overall, this the moment for ultimate glory! No matter what the results, I’m still a proud Man Utd fan!

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A little strange dream about 3 years ago had me writhing about in bed. It was a dream about being returned to the past and thought of the need to relive my whole life once again dreaded me. I want to be returned to the present. Only then I realized that the past can’t be changed, and never to be changed.

This dream seems to be relevant again now. Not too long ago, the Serenity Prayer entered my mind and has stuck ever since. My perspective on the prayer had always been about a person’s trials in the present. I never knew how significant it could be dealing with past issues. Thinking along the line, “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.” What’s one thing you can never change in life? Your past.

And serenity in dealing our past is never easy. It’s never easy to be in tranquil with the boat rocking beneath you, never knowing when it will sink. And strangely enough, even at calm waters, it’s easy to be concern when the boat isn’t moving, stuck at a wide ocean and not going anywhere! As such, it is almost always about questioning the decisions and actions, even the supposed good ones. Questions such as if I should have studied something else or if I should be in another career line or if I should have put in the effort, dedication, hard work in whatever I do and so on gives the pinch, but none really stings compared to making good decisions or actions and feel hurt by it.

That’s when courage comes into the picture. The sense of unfairness after doing something good leaves the soul weary. It leaves you pondering if it’s worth doing it once again. It’s so easy to neglect why did I ever acted unselfishly in the first place? Definitely wasn’t for my own gain. Why did I fret and get discouraged then? It is at this stage, courage is difficult to come by. The courage to do what’s good although it never seems certain that if it will turn out well, again. It is necessary to squeeze every ounce of courage to move ahead despite the doubt and weariness pulling the legs down.

It’s never gonna be easy but any journey isn’t easy anyway. Doubt will continue to linger but one thing for sure, much wisdom is required to know what I can and can’t do. With the verse as an encouragement, good decisions and actions will be blessed by God in His own timing and accord, within His own plans. For the ones that isn’t good, God can still use it to his own purpose and never ever lose control .

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. - Romans 8.28″

It’s so easy to be disillusioned, when there’s so much hope and trust within, only to have it broken.

It’s so easy to be discouraged, when there’s so much effort put in, everything never seem to work.

It’s so easy to be in disbelief, when all the above frequently happen, without any signs of light.

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A friend once asked me, which is better of the two; an idealist or a cynic? To which I answered, that I am currently both. I’ve always thought of myself as a dreamer and an idealist. I could spend all night star gazing in an attempt to reach for the skies. There’s a sense of romanticism attached to it which leaves the mind and soul longing for its imagination to be fulfilled. It just reminds you of that classic Disney song, “When You Wish Upon A Star”.

However, cynicism takes it all away. The battle to overcome the constant struggles, disappointments, questions, the inner demons can leave one very weary. How much can a person keep those from imploding within? Perhaps it all comes from having too many dreams and ideals, and it’s often offset by reality. So much so that Linkin Park’s “In The End” tune keeps ringing in all corners of my cranium.

When I tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn’t even matter…
When I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end, it doesn’t even matter…

It is said, you have to let go in order to receive more. I think I’ve let go till I have nothing else left to give. It just becomes dry.

Maybe I’ve been misplacing my hope and trust. Maybe I shouldn’t expect too much in return. Maybe, just maybe, I need to experience the lowest depths so I will realize that all I’ve thought to be, isn’t all that it is in life.

Maybe I just need my Saviour.